Sad..

Sorry for not posting for the last few days.. can't use comp. I took two injections on friday.. Horrible. i hate injections.. On satuurday i went to check my bloob group. so i had to draw blood out.. once again it wa horrible.. but only more painful den the jabs..

Okay.. I'm kinda sad.

Sad.. i m confused.

I don'y know what u r talking about.

Frankly this is killing me.

I hate it to be the disaster of anything

But i've created a disaster.

One that can not be reversed.

Something i regretted doing.

But its too late to turn back now.

Not a single hope is left.

Not even a spark of hope.

Its just so sufocating.

So unreal.

But its happening.

I feel remorseful and depressed.

I can never forgive myself.

Of the damage i've inflicted on someone.

Who will be perished soon

Or even already perished.

I wish and i beg that he won't leave.

I'm feeling lost.

I just don't know what to do or say

But i guess now there is nothing that can be done.

I REALLY want to help.

Teach me how.

I love the cross necklace..

The one you got for me.

The beautiful one.

Which i'm wearing now.

I'm just feeling helplessly lost in what to do.

Listen to my silent plea..

For a special someone

This is to someone who has a split personality. You know who i mean.

The person you are now is just as good as the person i know before. You are a good person. No one can contain the evil in him for too long.. the only thing he can do is conquer it and not let it hurt others.. i'm sure u don't want anyone to be hurt.

I want to see the person inside you to come out.. I miss him. As a friend and someone who is concerned.. I'm worried. At first i was afraid but not i see no reason in being afraid for i know u'll not hurt. After listening to stories about i over reacted.. i was being frantic when i did not need to.. I'm terribly sorry for being so cold to you for a moment. If your still holding on to that hope of yours.. Keep holding on to it.. Don't let it go please..

I don't know how you'll react to this piece of entry cause i don't know which of you is reading it.. I really hope it is the one filled with hope and forgiveness and with the gift of giver. I really hope you come back...

reading psalm 23

its a very good verse..

Last paper..

Yeah!! tomorrow no paper!!

tml is only for those who takes combine chemistry and i don't take combine!! hahas.. happy.. can have extra day to brush up on my chemistry on wednesday.. and not to mention it will be my LAST PAPER!!

Hahas.. by wednesday i can play like a crazy gal.. whoo! hmm.. tml i'm going to SP to collect my nyaa bronze award.. so cool.. can't wait to do silver.. oh.. and i ordered cake for all my relief teachers namely mr. koh, ms. tay, mr. tan.. think they'll be leaving soon.. They are great teachers!!

today i had my history paper.. it was tough. I mean which exam paper isn't tough right? But if one studys had and don't do last minute revisions i'm sure one can do well.. hahas.. wad the heck think i'm going to have a borderline pass.. well gotta stay happy always!! =D

Open Up!!

Happy to have a new blog!!

Okay.. this is gonna be my new diary, something interesting to share with you..

last night i was dreaming.. i was dreaming that i played soccer.. and i kicked into chee wee's face.. =pp

hahas.. that was random.

anyways.. i am having exams now.. but i'm more den half way done.. left with 2 more papers before i finish and PLAY!!

i'm going for himalayas trekking with the school on 25 may.. it'll be a 10 days trip.. i paid $666 for it.. hahas.. hope i'll enjoy it.. i have to go for 3 injections!! ARGH!!

hmm.. this year i was introduced to my cell group. VIBRANT!! I love vibrant alot.. it helped me feel god in a TOTALLY different way.. a way any sinner can never feel.. GOD IS AWESOME!! but the sad thing is i can only go for cell once a month.. but my faith and trust with god will never fade.. i'm sure there will be a time when i'm allowed to go every week.. guess it is just not the time yet.. but at the meantime i am happy with once a month. and doing quiet time with pastor rachel is cool.. have i told u how AWESOME my pastor is? She is the coolest person i have ever met.. LIKE SERIOUSLY..

well coming to my love life.. its kinda complicated.. i don't want to touch on the sticky web behind me.. hahas.. well i have a crush on this guy. ttaller den me!! hahas.. that is important.. i'm like 1.65m tall right?? oh well.. the guy has the most charming smile and the look of his eyes is mind blowing.. hahas.. and he has a good sense of humor.. just the type of person i need to brighten up my dull life.. or maybe not dull..

well this blog is really just about me.. the plain me. oh and remember to tag.. vulgarities is not welcomed and pls pls pls rmb to leave your name.. hahas

anyways.. i gotta study for history on monday.. ciao~